Loveless...shameless....

That's a line from a song... I'm not truly loveless, just partly. It seems my (ahem) friends easily forget me the minute one part of my minisucle exsistence goes awry. Ok, so I feel GOOD for the first time in days after 4th period and I'm bouncing around, happy, just playing kristen's and i's retarded game 'try-to-step-on-other-peoples-feet,' and then Will came along and he and kris started to play so i ran through them, they had linked hands and stuff, etc, and then started to run after will, then kris, switching off,being happy, not wanting to force out my kidney or mutitlate my wrist, and then will called me miranda and I gave him a playful smack, nothing new, he hits me all the time, right? And he just goes, 'Amanda, you need to fucking calm down. you're to hyper."This comes from the wanna be PW elitist who can't be STOPPED when HE'S hyper. And so I just blow it off and start walking to roll call with him and kris etc, and he goes 'Ah-' and I go what?And he says "I can't say it with you here.'That doesn't even make me angry. It makes me want to cry. And on the way back from the weight room, all I hear from behind me is Willa nd Kris and Alex Caraponos laughing, and I realized I am so easily replacable to will, to kristen. I don't want to be a bitchy journal complainer but I can't wait for the best days of my life to be over. I just can't wait.Amanda, because my name is NOT slim.